So as I've said many times before, I am so thankful that my cycle is still functioning like clockwork. Somewhat. I usually have a period on CD 28 around 9am and ovulate on CD 13-14. Well, today is CD 14 and when I tested this morning, I was showing a high level, but not peak. NOT PEAK. Of course this has completely freaked me out. I turned to Dr. Google, pouring over his many entries. Followed with my many fertility books. Luteal phase defect? Endometriosis? Crap! I have been having, what I would call, some pretty heavy ovulation cramps (in fact, I am having them right now!) for the last 3 days, I'm bloated, but my boobs aren't sore. Now, since we took time off, I can't remember exactly how I have felt during ovulation in the past, but this sure seems right, but no peak level??
I know it's not the end of the world, I'm sure ovulating on CD 15 is fine, but it's the CD16+ I'm worried about. Maybe I just didn't ovulate this month, I know it's natural. It would just seem very ironic that on the very month we start trying again and include a $200 intralipid, I don't ovulate. Crap crap crap.
I got really depressed about it today, though. I haven't felt that down since, well, the last 6 months of trying to concieve. Taking a break was really a break for me. I didn't have to think about peeing on sticks of any kind, charting, researching, cramps, twinges, implantation, sore boobs, metallic tastes. You know. The usual. And I will have to say it was nice. I get stressed just thinking about the TTC Game.
Hopefully this will all be resolved in the morning when I see a full fertility bar and a little egg on my monitor. Until then, I will most likely flip the F out.
Go, little egg, go!